wow, it has been awhile...if anyone reads this, i apologize...actually, no i don't

i'm sorry to anyone who has been caught in the crossfire of my attempts to understand this life, but what has become clear is that mine, maybe not yours but definitely mine, will always be hectic

i'm sitting in the "lab" right now, mad scientist that i am, working on mixing a few songs for the upcoming "Kings of Tragedy" project, sippin' on a lil' something, eating some pretzels, and writing to this bangin' beat that MC Till and i made a few days ago...i'm writing about a various dream sequence that i may have on any given night, and relating it to the positions we put ourselves in - in the conscious world...a lot of times, they are like dreams

round and round we go, where the hectic"ism" stops, nobody knows

here, let me explain

"have-not and has-been

every night i wake up gaspin'

cause i'm trying to climb everest, but ain't been to aspen

knowing anything that i could grasp ain't everlastin'

matter of fact, it's bound to lapse

now i'm lappin'

round the track, fasten the belt, now i'm off

round and back, circle the block cause i'm lost

and how 'bout that, think i'm coming down with a cough

a pound, some dap, 

they lookin' at me like i'm sloth

excuse me brother, 

don't mean to be a choosey lover

but i'm woozy, think i need a woolie, brother

so can i have a nickel, a dime, a smoke, a puff or

drag to ease me and my unruly slumber

it's sad

how never knowing my dad

could put myself in this predicament and plug in the stat

as another number

victim

under 

system

wonder how this world had once loved him, missed him

numbered

victim

under 

God

wonder how this world that once loved him got

lost..."

dreamin...i had a dream...and forgot it when i woke :)

that's it for now...sweet dreams

wonder brown